♦Jupiter x Mercury ~ EMOTIONS ~ Oneshot

I walked out that door, my face emotionless, my eyes empty and head held normally, like any other person on a normal day. But as soon as I stepped into a safer place, a place far away, I let that mask fall as my eyes showed the wetness locked inside them and my throat unlocked, letting my face free to express the pain and loneliness I felt at that moment.

It didn't take more than the second to lock the door, I just couldn't hold my sobs as my lungs seemed to be empty and make me gasp for air, as I slid down onto the floor of my apartment and cried like I hadn't in a very, very long time.

My heart hurt to bad, I felt so tense and weak, my head was practically spinning as I leaned it back against the wall, hugging my knees as I let out a silent scream. I didn't let the sound go out, but I felt it tearing in my throat as my jaws tensed terribly and I tried to hold things in. I knew I wouldn't be able to.

More tears fall down, I wipe them away with my shirt, but it's not as if they stop. More keep coming, and I can just sigh and try to keep my breath, try to keep the sound in as all off this pours out. My whole body is hurting from this, even though it's more of an emotional pain… all this tension ended up extending it to the physical.

Something inside me was breaking even more, I just couldn't stand holding back as more sobs came up. I grabbed a cushion that had fallen off the couch and hugged that tight, hoping to find comfort in it. That reminded me of when I was crying, before, instead of a cushion I could have someone's arms around me, holding me close…

Whimpering, I managed to gasp for air before more sobs came from my throat. I remembered those moments, and that promise… we were a family from the beginning, they accepted me so well, we promised to stay together forever, no matter what happened. Was that broken so easily? Do they still accept me? Can I accept that, them, and myself?

I can't understand this, it's such a complicated situation for one to be them. I know them but now, I feel like a complete stranger. My band mates, my friends, the only family I have left… what happened? I curl up more, thinking of it. It hurts so much to think this could have ended it, and I don't know how it started, if it was me, or him, or maybe someone else.

What's worse is that all this pain… I know I was the one to hurt him, I said all that, I ended this… I feel so guilty but I doubt I'd have the courage to face him, even if it were to say sorry. Even if it were to see him one last time before I vanish from earth.

I feel the need to curl up in bed, in the far corner, cover myself in blankets and just stay there. Sleep, maybe, but no food, no water… just let time take me away. I'm so radically emotional at times, I still don't know how to control it, or how even the smallest thing can hit me so hard. Sure, this isn't a small thing.

I run my fingers through my hair, clench my fist, and pull. Not hard enough to tear, just to hurt. I need to snap out of this, think, find a way to apologize. I'm sure I made him hate me, but if there's a small chance of that not being true… I don't know if I can stand to be forgiven. Why are all these things so hard?

Suddenly I feel so weak… my breath is near normal, the sobs stop, only the tears go on rolling as I fall to my side, managing to put the cushion under my head. It isn't that long until I pass out.

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My mind is racing over his words, over what he did, but I know he didn't mean it all. I know him well, he's just so emotional and fragile, if he's still awake by now he must be crying. Some would call him weak, but it's not his fault all that happens. I should have known what to say to make him calm down and make him stay, but I ended up being stabbed by those words.

For someone usually so cheerful and cute, he knows how to be cold and cruel when it comes to it. But he always breaks down right after it, I've seen it happen before. He was feeling numb, after numbness comes loss of control in some form, and well… if he snaps, he breaks.

Gathering whatever strength I have left, I stand and grab the keys to his apartment, I still have my copy of them. He was to move in here next week, though… Shaking my head, I leave and lock the door behind me, heading to the building he lives in. I grabbed a hat to cover my eyes, and I think it's safe to assume no one would notice my state before I got up there.

The building is almost empty, it's a cold time of the year even though it's not winter just yet. This is a considerably small city unless we have snow or it's plain summer, which explains it. I sigh, going up the stairs and finally standing in front of the dark, wooden door. I test the key, and notice he left his own key in. Luckily, I manage to push it out because of how it was left, opening the door.

Beside the door, curled up and with his head on a cushion, was the one I was looking for. And I was right, he cried himself to sleep, right on the floor… I can hear music in the background, and for the lyrics, it certainly didn't help him. Shaking my head, I pick him up carefully and walk to the bedroom, sitting down on the bed.

Throwing my hat somewhere to the side, I lay down and pull him close, kissing his forehead and holding him protectively. I know that as soon as he wakes up we'll have to find some way to deal with this situation, but being here with him gives me the comfort I needed to be able to keep him with me.

For the rest of the night, I didn't dare close my eyes to rest. I won't let him run away from me this time, I'm sure we can solve this… at least he looks peaceful now, sleeping so calmly. I still have to figure out what exactly started all this, but if we manage to sort things out without knowing I can try leaving that back.

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I yawned softly, I felt so warm… my lungs felt heavy, which told me I cried myself to sleep, but this warmth… As memories came flashing back, I also noticed he was awake and right here holding me. Looking up, I met his eyes. Green eyes, filled with that love and warmth, and with the comfort I knew I needed.

But I couldn't ask that of him, after doing what I did… I looked back down, and tried to move away. I know it won't work, when I'm like this I can't get away from him… sighing, I look back up and bite my lower lip, hesitating.

"Yuu…"

"Don't… don't worry about it, okay?" He smiled, and I knew he meant his words. But I couldn't not worry, it just wasn't possible. "And stop blaming yourself, you know it's not something good for you…" Can he read my mind or something? I almost forgot that…

His smile is so warm that I can't help but smile back slightly, for only a second, as my heart seems lighter. He kisses me, it's soft, slow and gentle, a comforting kiss. It works, I should stop being so vulnerable but at the same time I'm thankful for this, I need it. And as long as I can try to make him happy… I can even face the challenge to try controlling those messed up emotions of mine. I just don't want to hurt him.

♦Mercury ~ PAIN ~ Oneshot

Akira bit his lip, wrapping a hand around his wrist and wincing at both the jolts of pain he got from that. Blood leaked from between his fingers as he tried to stop the bleeding long enough to reach the bathroom and let the red liquid go down with water as he searched for the products to disinfect his wounds.

He closed his eyes, finding the bottle and picking it up with the two useful fingers left on his right hand, opening it to the best of his ability and pouring it on a piece of cotton he managed to reach. He passed it over his left wrist, cleaning the cuts and wincing again at the stinging feeling.

Sighing, he took some bandages and wrapped his wrist up, enough so a fingerless long glove he had would cover up the bandage if other people saw him. Then, the went back to the bedroom, slipping on that glove and staring at his hands. A dislocated finger, cuts on the wrist, a swollen, immobilized finger, all on the left hand. Two swollen and almost broken fingers on his right hand.

That would take at least two weeks to heal, and they had rehearsal during that… what would he say to the others? He was under lots of stress from the band, pressure at home and at the school for his sexuality and choices, people fighting with him over things he wasn’t guilty of…

When that person shouted at him, it was just too much for him to stand. He lost it, punched the wall and couldn’t resist that knife, to try and make the emotional pain and weight go out through bleeding. Just shallow cuts would be enough…

And now here he was, an hour before rehearsal, sitting on his bed with the worst face ever. He was crying again, the weight was back and the physical pain wasn’t making it any better. He couldn’t possibly play his bass in these conditions, and he had no idea what to say to Jupiter if he asked.

Fifty minutes later, his phone rang. It was the vocalist, as predicted, wanting to know where he was and if everything was okay. He answered normally, prepared his things and went to rehearsal, hoping no one would notice his difficulty in playing. Or the lump on his wrist, under the glove, that were his bandages. Or the swollen fingers, purple and red.

Could only hope.

♦Oneshots

Mercury:
PAIN

Venus:

Mars:

Jupiter:

Saturn:

Uranus:

Neptune:

Jupiter x Mercury:
STRESS
EMOTIONS

♦Pluto ~ Profile & Intro

Name: Osamu Raiden
Band Name: Pluto
Position: Ex-bassist
Hair: Silver-white, short
Eyes: Red
Age: 15+
Gender: Male
Mother: ??
Father: ??
Siblings: None
Previous band: None
Favorite colors: Violet
Favorite food: ??
Favorite song: School's Out - Alice Cooper
Favorite band: An Cafe
Lover: Ceres
Note: No notes on him XD

Intro:

Pluto was the original bassist to Solar sYstem, but due to his increasing sensitivity to the light he had to stop doing lives with the band. He has albinism, which already deprives him from the sun, but he had never been as sensitive to the lights as he was at the point where the band started doing well. Maybe from the excessive exposure, his vision and skin were affected more in the short period of time.

After he leaves the band, he continues living and touring with them, accepting Mercury with open arms as his replacement, and teaching him what he doesn’t know, as well as being taught in return.

He is Ceres’ boyfriend, but Michael insists on trying to get him for himself, doing all kind of crazy things for that. Even so, Pluto continues being his friend and trying to make him understand that he won’t leave Ceres.

His true name is Osamu Raiden, but he keeps being called Pluto even after he leaves the band, since they form a family and he’s still part of that.

♦Uranus ~ Profile & Intro

Name: Isamu Aki
Band Name: Uranus
Position: Violinist, Cellist
Hair: White and purple, shoulder length
Eyes: Dark blue
Age: 14+
Gender: Male
Mother: ??
Father: ??
Siblings: None
Previous band: None
Favorite colors: Purple
Favorite food: Salad
Favorite song: Arabian Dance - Pjotr Ilyich Tchaikovsky
Favorite artist: Bethoven
Lover: ??
Note: ... I have to work a lot on him, still.

Intro:

Uranus has white, shoulder-length hair with some purple on the tips, making him stand out as much as Mars and Michael, or even more. He is lazy, or just calm, but is always leaning against something or sitting, when not lying down somewhere.

He listens to a lot of classical music, and ended up adding that touch even to the hardest songs made by the band, with a violin background or a cello, adding a dramatic, emotional or lighter end depending on the song.

His real name is Isamu Aki, and he’s fourteen by the start of the band. He’s Pluto’s best friend, and the most affected by him leaving the band, so it makes it harder for him to accept Mercury as part of the group.

♦Neptune ~ Profile & Intro

Name: Haru Akihiko
Band Name: Neptune
Position: Keyboardist
Hair: Blue with black, long in back
Eyes: Black
Age: 15+
Birthday: February 3rd
Gender: Male
Mother: ??
Father: ??
Siblings: ??
Previous band: MIB - Men In Blue
Favorite colors: Blue
Favorite food: Caviar
Favorite song: Vermilion pt2 - Slipknot
Favorite band: Slipknot
Lover: ??
Note: I have to work a lot on his character, don't I? He does loosen up during the story, thankfully.

Intro:

Neptune is usually quiet and looks serious, but he can be a complete idiot and make a fool out of himself when he really feels comfortable, with people he trusts. If he just doesn’t think because he’s lazy to do so, or if he does it to make things fun for the group, that’s a mystery.

He had another band, Men In Blue, which broke apart nearly one month before the original idea for Solar sYstem. In his previous band, he was a guitarist, but since he also knew how to play the keyboard and the drums, he decided to give his guitar a rest from the band project and just play keyboard for now. His drum set was also now set aside from this band, but since drummers could be rare, he was often invited to play with another band as a guest.

Loving almost any kind of music, Neptune usually sat in the back of the class with his songs, ignoring the teachers if the subject were too boring for him. Even so, he miraculously never failed a year, always managing to get high grades at the last second.

Having both sides, of mysterious character or of an idiot open book, he tended to confuse those who weren’t that close to him, or even the ones who were, at times.

His name is Haru Akihiko, and he’s just one month younger than Jupiter, being born on the third of February while the vocalist was born on the same day of January.

♦Saturn ~ Profile & Intro

Name: Unknown
Band Name: Saturn
Position: Guitarist
Hair: Black, half-length
Eyes: Black
Age: 15+
Gender: Male
Mother: ??
Father: ??
Siblings: ??
Previous band: None
Favorite colors: Black, red
Favorite food: ??
Favorite song: Vermilion pt2 - Slipknot
Favorite band: Slipknot
Lover: ??
Note: I have to work a lot on his character, don't I? He does loosen up during the story, thankfully.

Intro:

Now Saturn, Saturn was dark. Dark clothes, dark hair, dark make up, dark guitar, dark house, dark food, dark everything you could think. And his piercings, they added to that. He had snakebites on his lips, and five earrings on one ear, seven on the other. A bellybutton piercing and one loop also on his lips. Not to mention his rings and wristbands, the collar he wore, and the chains hanging from his clothes.

He was calm, closed up, and didn't really like to speak unless spoken to. He used to feel locked away and different from all before he met Jupiter, when he gained more confidence and actually put his soul into playing the guitar.

Even with that, he is still closed to the world, his mysteries being as hidden as possible. Not much is known of his past, actually, almost nothing is known of him. Who knows if his secrets will be uncovered or not?

But also, he is one more who doesn't resist the beauty of Venus. He was captivated the first time he saw him, but never showed it much. Despite his cold ways, he is actually very worried for the ones he cares for, and many times his harsh words are just a way to mask things.